Well, this is what i'm reminding myself currently. Maybe i'm too stressed out or i've been pushing myself too hard. But, sometimes i just hate myself for being the ways i do my things.. yes hate it.. coz i always delayed my work.. everytime i plan my things in the end not everything goes with my plan.. some turned out better but some turned out worse.. well, i guess this is the barrier for keeping me on success.. for eg, i planned to work out on my assignments and study for my mid terms during cny holidays.. in the end.. i worked out a little and I didn't study anything at all!! T-T.. what is happening to me now? I used to finish my work on time but I realize that I keep falling back on schedule!! it is stressful to think of all the work not done and yet i have not enough time for all that.. in the end.. my studies also delay.. and the chances i get bad results is higher.. sigh.. when will i totally change myself?Please God, I pray for you to help me and support me all this while.. It's getting harder and harder to breathe.. there are so many things in my mind and I am SO FORGETFUL!! T-T hate it..
And just now.. I just realized that I have delayed in sending emails to my classmates to book for viva venues.. and now.. everyone delayed.. and god knows what Ms Shuguna will do to us? I am so careless.. i really hope that ms. Shuguna will forgive us... though it is very small hope.. but I don't like to get people in trouble.. then later , I realized that I accidentally deleted my powerpoint slides for tutorial presentation and I just have to retype it again.. sigh.. since when im so INEFFICIENT? I hate myself for being this way.. yeah.. we should not always take things forgranted.. that's the lesson I've learnt all this while.. and yet.. I didn't change... sigh.. human beings...
Hopefully.. things just turn out better for me from now on.. I need to grow up!! I'm facing the real world soon enough and yet I'm not letting myself ready and prepared for that.. pls.. God help me now..
