Wednesday, September 28, 2011

信任与信心

这两个词,对我来说,是息息相关的。从小到大,我努力地表现自己,你们却看不到。

小时候,当班长、巡查员,你们说我是做傻子,吃力不讨好。但是,我自己知道,我的领导能力是从那时培养出来的。

少女时代,同窗姐妹们一起在学校学习,搞活动,你们又阻止我,说要以学业为重。但是,我自己知道,今昔感情非比当年,是因为你们让我离群了。

中学刚毕业,姐妹们情深难舍,出外逛街,卡拉ok ,通宵聊天,你们也不让我参与,怕我学坏,被骗。但是,我自己知道,那只是你们的想法,我要的,只是那几个小时的相聚和自由。

学驾车,第一次失误,使你们更担心我的技术,往后的日子,即使技巧熟练了,我自己知道,要自己驾车在路上,是多么没信心的事。

出外读书,做工,虽然表面是高兴,但是每天的电话不缺。我自己知道,你们是担心我的,担心我不会照顾自己。我真的让你们那么担心吗?

在异国念书打工,表面说是比在吉隆坡放心,但是分隔两地,又不能时常见面,只能以电话联系。我自己知道,你们一定又会担心和想念我了。

好不容易,生活渐上轨道,找到要好的男友,相知相惜,你们表面不说,但是,我心里知道,你们心里早已七上八下,忐忑不安。期望祝福的爱情,换来的却是你们的不安。

我是一个倔强的女孩,外表也许柔弱,但我内心强硬的很。做事总希望光明磊落,有交待。但是,在你们眼中,我是那么脆弱吗?为什么你们总是不相信我的实力?我的能耐?为什么不给我一个机会去证明我自己,也可以像他人一样?

我骨子里是带叛逆,但是选择性的叛逆。你们以阻止,严厉管教来保护我,我一向来也不敢嚣张,只是乖巧的听从。目的只是不想当个不孝女而已。我不是断了线的风筝,心里还是系着你们。但是,当一个人孤单时,想找一个可信任的人聊心事,我发现,你们不是名单里的第一位。

Friday, February 18, 2011

The Road Not Taken- Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

My Life Long Target

Though havent achieve it.. I'm trying my best and heading towards this target..

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

The Dash -----

Never Give Up !

Friday, February 11, 2011

Luv This =)

十根指頭的故事 (另外一種美)


哪有男生不喜歡女孩子身材正、樣子漂亮、聲音甜美? 一位男友人道。

對呀,所以現在誰都追求大眼睛,而不是慧眼;

喜歡紅唇,卻不是說造就人說話的嘴;

追求美白,而不是屬於另一半的肌膚;

想要豐胸,但不是溫柔的懷裏;

喜歡低胸,而不是保守的觀念;

欣賞水晶甲,卻不是整齊的指甲;

欣賞高跟鞋,但不是踏實的腳步等等。

這篇文章,是給照顧我19年的父母的。當我長大了,有很多事我懂了。

也許都讓你想起他們。

就 像你們老早就告訴我世界沒有童話、主角永遠不會死,我老不相信。直到自己談戀愛了,我才知道世上沒有王子、沒有像劇情般的戲份,但我已經傷痕累累了。就像 你們老早就告訴我看多一些課外書認識世界、學會多一點技能,我老不聽話。真到自己升上大學了,我才知道自己多麼的渺小、如何的詞不逹意、枯燥無味。

這是我十根指頭的故事。

她們不聰明也不勤力,但很幸運,有機會懂很多。

小時候,看見有一個姐姐彈琴很厲害,鋼琴的聲音很動聽,我愛上了音樂。爸爸就讓我有機會去學彈琴,想不到第二次學琴,看到琴譜,她們懂怎樣彈三級的歌曲。

那天,爸媽就對我說,女兒,這雙手很美,但不像別人的美。

我問道:為什麼?

爸說: 因為學琴的人不能留長手指甲,更別說漂亮的水晶甲了。

然而,我沒有後悔,因為這十根短短的手指頭已經不是彈琴這麼簡單了。朋友們,你有曾經試過這樣的獻上嗎?雖然看上去像不美麗,但卻比這些一切都更值得、更可貴。

媽,你知道嗎?我喜歡彈琴不是因為自己喜歡音樂這麼簡單。這些不能留長的手指,平息了一場場的吵架、帶來了平安的笑聲,和諧了一整個家。

當年,家境不像現在這麼好,妳跟爸爸常常吵架,其實我很害怕,害怕到要哭了,可是我一彈琴,你們就不吵了。你們冷靜過後,還回我一大堆的笑容,那是不能形容的安心。

我還記得,那時候妹妹還在世的時候,她常常因為插喉、飲藥、用呼吸機很辛苦。那很害怕又無能為力的時候,是這十根指頭,奏出華麗的琴音,妹妹的哭聲靜止了。在她最辛苦的時候,這十根指頭發揮出前所未有的功效。

往後,爸媽再加入教會的詩班,學藝不精的我,僅僅能彈出那伴奏,讓我們可以在家裏唱詩歌讚美神。

媽,你說懂鋼琴,未來就能找一個懂鋼琴的男朋友了,對不起我很沒用找不到,但我比較喜歡彈琴給你們聽。當所有女孩子都在留長指甲的時候我很妒忌,因為我不可以,但媽你告訴我,我的雙手比誰的都漂亮。

爸,你知道嗎?你教我用倉頡打字的時候,因為沒有留長指甲,所以我學倉頡打字的時候比誰都快。到我升上中一的時候,我比同學們都厲害,不是因為那十根指頭,而是我有一個很為我著想的爸爸。

體育課的時候,有些女同學常常遇上反甲的意外,我沒有。曾經想過就算長指甲很麻煩很危險我都想留,因為美麗、可愛,但這樣的衝動我沒有了,因為我比較喜歡平凡又安穩。

長 大了,你常常逼我做家務,現在我會自動去做家務了。這十根看似不美麗的指頭,我很喜歡,因為讓我沒有藉口不幫忙做家務。如果留長了指甲,怎麼洗魚呢?當我 的大學同學看見我伸手入去魚的內部,將內臟續一取出來的時候,他們有的尖叫,有的流露噁心的樣子。我在想若果我留了指甲,怎能做菜給你們吃,怎能做菜給下 班回來累累的爸媽呢。

你說女孩子要懂照顧家人,未來嫁出去了,要在自己辛苦、老公又辛苦的時候,主動去做家務,那才是老婆。所以你說女孩子 可以什麼都不會,可以讀不上大學,可以不學琴不唱歌,更可以不美麗,但就是不可以不會做家務,因為你想我獨立。爸,你知道嗎?這個世代的男生大都不欣賞這 樣的女生,也不這樣選老婆,但是我學會的不是怎樣吸引異性,而是未來你老了,我最少可以不幫你叫外賣、不要你辛苦的下樓,你都可以吃到飯。

洗 碗、做飯、洗菜等等,若果我留了長長的指甲,或是裝了美麗的指甲,我就不能幫助爸媽了。從此,我沒有留過長長的指甲,最多就是塗上不同色的指甲油。不以那 短短的手指頭為恥,感謝神,賜給我方便、靈巧、美麗的十根指頭。我不是特別的、美麗的、更不是有什麼好誇口的,但天父讓我走了一條體會很多的路。

要不是媽媽你先放下美麗的身段,留我這個不怎麼考順的女兒在你的肚子裏十個月;

要不是媽媽你先放下美麗的時間,為我努力工作、儲錢,不用來娛樂;

要不是爸爸你先放下美麗的面子,把我教導、把我訓練、讓我成長;

要不是爸爸你先放下美麗的力量,將所有心思和力量都放在那個要在你肩膀上玩耍的我;

這十根指頭一點都不美麗、不值得,你們知道嗎?

如果這個世界都在說你不美麗不配不可愛,不要緊,只少要你的美麗最少有爸媽、天父看見。

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Appreciate Life


The Rose Within

A certain man planted a rose and watered it faithfully and before it blossomed, he examined it.

He saw the bud that would soon blossom, but noticed thorns upon the stem and he thought, "How can any beautiful flower come from a plant burdened with so many sharp thorns? Saddened by this thought, he neglected to water the rose, and just before it was ready to bloom... it died.

So it is with many people. Within every soul there is a rose. The God-like qualities planted in us at birth, grow amid the thorns of our faults. Many of us look at ourselves and see only the thorns, the defects.

We despair, thinking that nothing good can possibly come from us. We neglect to water the good within us, and eventually it dies. We never realize our potential.

Some people do not see the rose within themselves; someone else must show it to them. One of the greatest gifts a person can possess is to be able to reach past the thorns of another, and find the rose within them.

This is one of the characteristic of love... to look at a person, know their true faults and accepting that person into your life... all the while recognizing the nobility in their soul. Help others to realize they can overcome their faults. If we show them the "rose" within themselves, they will conquer their thorns. Only then will they blossom many times over.

Inspirational Pencil Story

The Pencil Maker took the pencil aside, just before putting him into the box.

"There are 5 things you need to know," he told the pencil, "Before I send you out into the world. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best pencil you can be."


"One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in Someone's hand."

"Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, but you'll need it to become a better pencil."

"Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make."


"Four: The most important part of you will always be what's inside."

"And Five: On every surface you are used on, you must leave your mark. No matter what the condition, you must continue to write."

The pencil understood and promised to remember, and went into the box with purpose in its heart.


Now replacing the place of the pencil with you. Always remember them and never forget, and you will become the best person you can be.

One: You will be able to do many great things, but only if you allow yourself to be held in God's hand. And allow other human beings to access you for the many gifts you possess.

Two: You will experience a painful sharpening from time to time, by going through various problems in life, but you'll need it to become a stronger person.

Three: You will be able to correct any mistakes you might make.

Four: The most important part of you will always be what's on the inside.

And Five: On every surface you walk through, you must leave your mark. No matter what the situation, you must continue to do your duties.



Allow this parable on the pencil to encourage you to know that you are a special person and only you can fulfill the purpose to which you were born to accomplish.

Never allow yourself to get discouraged and think that your life is insignificant and cannot make a change.