Another Disappointment

Again, my results for this semester has gone worse. I'm not expecting much and I did not put high hope to my results but the fact is no matter how hard I've tried, the outcome is always undesirable. I do not want to give up but is this where I will end up to? I've tried harder and harder and my aims are still the same and again I fell. People are improving day by day but I will still go worse. Imagine from all the years I've been studying my results are dropping? What's wrong with me now? It's not that I did not study, I've spent my time doing tutorials, notes, memorizing, past years.. and everything turned out not enough for me. I don't want this to happen and it still happened. Sadly to say, I'm numbed to this kind of results. Maybe being too good at the beginning made me feel harder to maintain in the end. I know I shouldn't give up. I know I should keep holding on.. but do I have the courage to strive on? In fact I can predict what is my next result. I wanted to graduate with first class, having a book prize. That is my final target. But with these undesirable outcome of my finals, I really doubt that I can win in the end. Well, what will be will be. All I can do is to work extra hard for the last two semesters and pray for a miracle. Hope I can achieve what I want to achieve in the end.